you are so awkward, yet i find it endearing. i don’t know if it is the way you limp around looking all confused, the way you circle around cars unnecessarily while doing your job, or the way you squint your eyes when your turrets overpowers your muscles. for a while, i thought it was just your hair i was attracted to, but then you cut it off, and i daresay you are even more handsome. however, i never want to speak to you because, i hear, you are the most awkward person in the world and conversing with you would ruin your looks. therefore, if you see me staring, i am so sorry.
i can’t wait to meet you. i am sorry for all my past mistakes. life’s not as easy as i had thought. i’m working on it though. i’m trying to make myself into the best person i can be for you.
i promise i will love you with all i can for as long as i live if you promise to accept me, flaws and all, lead me and our family in Christ, keep me safe in danger, support me through every hard decision, hold me when i cry, surprise me whenever you can, kiss me like tomorrow won’t come, and love me ‘till death do us part. deal?
you are my prince and i know that the day we say, “i do,” will be the happiest day of my life. i’m waiting for you, beloved. i pray that God will keep you safe and help you become the man He created you to be, the one He designed to compliment me perfectly.
darling, did you know that i dream about you, waiting for the look in your eyes when we meet for the first time? darling, did you know that i pray about you, praying that you will hold on and keep your loving eyes only for me? darling, did you know i dream about life together, knowing it will be forever. i’ll be yours, and you’ll be mine. and, darling, when i say, “till death do us part,” i mean it with all of my heart, now and always faithful to you. because i am waiting for and praying for you, darling. wait for me, too. wait for me as i wait for you.
even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, Your perfect love is casting out fear. and even when i’m caught in the middle of the storms of this life, i won’t turn back, i know You are near. and i will fear no evil for my God is with me and if my God is with me whom then shall i fear? whom then shall i fear?
oh no, You never let go through the calm and through the storm. oh no, You never let go every high and every low. oh no, You never let go, Lord, You never let go of me.
"He committed no sin, and no deceit was found in his mouth."
when they hurled their insults at Him, He did not retaliate; when He suffered, He made no threats. instead, He entrusted Himself to Him who judges justly. He Himself bore our sins in His body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by His wounds you have been healed. for you were like sheep going astray, but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls.
“i said…um…spider-man, i said…uh…the great thing about mj is…when you look in her eyes and she’s looking back in yours…everything…feels…not quite normal…because you feel stronger and weaker at the same time. you feel excited and at the same time, terrified. the truth is…you don’t know what you feel except you know what kind of man you want to be. It’s as if you’ve reached the unreachable and you weren’t ready for it.”—peter parker, the love of my life
this song completely changed my outlook on life at the beginning of this semester. it made me realize that i am not, nor will i ever be, the center of the universe. i was inspired to change the world, which i strive to do. i have been slacking lately, so i’m basically posting this to remind myself of my insignificance.
isn’t it amazing that one can make beautiful music by just simply plucking a string or blowing through a metal tube or banging hard on different surfaces? and how we as an audience can absorb and interpret sound waves within milliseconds? and how these sound waves can express emotion, how they can can fill us with sadness to the point of tears or happiness to the point of dancing?
i was sitting in on my friend, hannah, as she practiced piano and i was absolutely overwhelmed as i thought about how God came up with sound. pitch, tone, resonance, volume, just everything about sound is incredibly intricate and worked ever so perfectly.
the whole process of vibrations through the air traveling at amazing speeds reach a tiny drum inside the ear, triggering nerves to send signal to the brain telling it exactly what you are listening is astounding. just think about it! without sound you wouldn’t have music or laughter or speaking or anything.
this whole trying-to-wrap-my-head-around-sound thing is really getting me excited for my line of work. i am in school right now studying speech pathology and i cannot wait to get out there and start my practice. i want to change a person’s life, even if it means simply altering the way a person speaks. if you think about it, having a lisp or speech impediment is a devastating thing to a kid. their confidence could be shattered or they could be teased and unaccepted by other kids their age. plus, children are so cute, and i think they will keep me young and keep me on fire for God for the rest of my life. i find so much joy in the innocence of children; they haven’t been corrupted by the world yet.
so yes, back on topic, sound is incredible. open your ears and listen.
as my roommate, hannah, would say, “love is a tricky thing.”
there really is nothing like it.
it’s the strongest feeling one person can have toward another.
while one is in love, they can’t imagine not having it.
once it’s lost, pain replaces it.
but was lost love really love in the first place?
william shakespeare once said “it is better to have loved then lost than to have never loved at all.”
he obviously thought love could indeed be lost.
i don’t agree.
love never fails. ever.
people can fail, situations can fail, relationships can fail, but love should never fail.
1 corinthians 13:8-10 says, “love never fails. but where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophecy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.”
love is perfect.
people are not; people are impatient, mean, jealous, boastful, prideful, rude, selfish, easily angered, etc.
therefore, people cannot produce perfect love.
but there is one that can, and His perfect love surpasses all understanding.
God. Loves. Us.
God, the most amazing, perfect, powerful, awesome Creator of the ends of the earth, loves us.
we are ignorant, rude, selfish beings, yet He loves us.
i was in love once.
and love, like i said, is a tricky thing.
love can be lost.
but human love does not compare to the great, amazing love that God has given us.
it doesn’t even deserve to be the same word as the love we can give.
the greeks had it right. they defined love as philia (friendship), éros (passionate love, stronger than philia), storge (affection, usually between family members), and finally agápe (eternal love). agápe is the strongest love and was rarely ever used, except in the terms of God’s love for us.
God’s agápe is shown through everything. everything in nature is evidence of God’s love for us. the Bible is full of His perfect love. and most of all, in Jesus, whom He sent to die on the cross for us.
Simply put, God loves us and we are commanded to love others with that same, perfect, eternal love. so people need to stop throwing around the word. it’s losing its meaning.
a few months back, i deleted my facebook. now i know what most of you are thinking…oh my gosh! you deleted your facebook!? i could never do that… however, this is possibly one of the best decisions i have ever made, for multiple reasons
facebook is a complete and utter waste of time. i look back and think about all the years i wasted changing my profile picture or going through some random person’s album from my third grade class and i am so appalled with myself. i could have used that time hanging out with friends or getting a job or actually doing something productive.
it is constantly on your mind…ooo i wonder if someone liked my status or why hasn’t she added me?!
it gives us a facade to hide behind. we all have them: those typical mirror pics we took to make us all seem so much better than we actually are. we delete every picture that shows the slightest imperfection about us. we post statuses that we normally wouldn’t tell anyone, such as it’s raining outside or omg! my cat just ate my sandwich. cool. no one cares.
it causes us to think that the world revolves around us when in reality, what we had for breakfast or the fact that it is indeed friday does not matter in the grand scheme of things.
it makes us all into creepy, obsessed people who notice every little change in someone’s facebook life. why does my fifth grade teacher know that i have a dog named fido and he bit my mail man last thursday? have you ever been talking to some one about going to the mall and buying a pair of shorts and then they respond, “oh yeah, i saw that on facebook.” why? why would you possibly know that or need to know that or even make the effort to retain that in your memory? seriously though, we are all creepers.
it makes people lazy. no one calls or comes over or asks about you anymore because they have facebook. if they really loved you, they would get in touch with you. i know, i know. you think that if you deleted your facebook, then you wouldn’t be in touch with a lot of your old friends from home. trust me, i live in illinois and go to school in california. if they are your true friends, they will call. you will stay in touch. you don’t need pictures to describe your life; if they care, they will ask.
in conclusion, i think you should join my boycott and delete your facebook. it would save the world and you a lot of trouble.
i cannot stress enough about how much i appreciate each one of you. i am so so happy God has blessed me with such amazing friends. you guys are all like my family away from home, and i love you all so much! thank you for such an awesome birthday surprise. it was absolutely perfect :)
"indeed my plans are not like your plans, and my deeds are not like your deeds, for just as the sky is higher than the earth, so my deeds are superior to your deeds and my plans superior to your plans. the rain and snow fall from the sky and do not return, but instead water the earth and make it produce and yield crops and provide seed for the planter and food for those who must eat. in the same way, the promise i make does not return to me, having accomplished nothing. no, it is realized as i desire and is fulfilled as i intended. indeed you will go out with joy; you will be led along in peace; the mountains and hills will give a joyful shout before you, and all the trees in the field will clap their hands. evergreens will grow in place of thorn bushes, firs will grow in place of nettles; they will be a monument to the LORD, a permanent reminder that will remain."
"this is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. and we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. if anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him. dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth." i wanted to keep going through this entire passage, but i have old testament to work on :)
have you ever been obsessed with the bible? has it ever consumed your thoughts at a free moment? have you ever felt the desire to just sit down and read the entire thing. these past few days, all i’ve wanted to do is crack open my bible and read. it amazes me that i can access to God’s actual words so easily. i am at the ultimate state of comfort when i am truly into a passage. i cannot believe how little we as a society actually do read God’s words. do you understand how precious a gift the bible is? do you use that gift to the best of your ability or do you take it for granted? when was the last time you actually opened up the bible and read it? how about, instead of reading more blogs on your dashboard or discovering everything tumblr has to offer, you open your bible to 1 John and read chapter 3. get your daily dose of God’s word. it’s good for you.
for those of you who don't think you are artistic:
you are! and you know why? because God created you in His own image, and He is creativity at its finest. He paints a new picture in the sky every day, arranges the stars in the sky, allows rain to fall and flowers to bloom, creates life from nothing, and gives us the beautiful colors that we all too often ignore. there is no way you can say that you aren’t artistic because you were created to be creative. God wove your mind together ever so particularly and uniquely. He created you to think differently, construct things differently, and see the world in ways no one else can. you are creativity! don’t deny that praise from God; recognize your talents and pursue them. don’t deprive the world of what is seen through your imaginative and inventive eyes.